Tuesday, November 27, 2007

yada yada..

i am sick, im tired,and i feel like shit...i was sick part of the time Nick was here...it went away shortly after heleft...now it has come back full force...i spent all day yesterday in bed or laying on the couch, when i could, and still fell asleep early last night...i am feeling a lil better today, but not sure if i should be doing a happy dance yet...hell, even my eyeballs hurt...

i got my ring back from the jewelry store yesterday, its more beautiful on then it was in the box...very pretty...

my mom called me on the way to pick it up...i was on the highway when she told me they called hospice for my grandfather...talk about trying to hold it together long enough to get me and the kids off the highway...omg....so this will be the 4th granparent to die within a year...5th family member, and 6th person since denny left...really, this streak can end any time now...they havent given him a time frame at all..but he isnt eating, so i can imagine it wont be long...this is the grandfather who lost his oldest son and mother in a year...well i found out lastnight also, that when he passes the funeral will be in florida...very upsetting...unless i call off xmas this year, i wont be going...i want to, so the boys may just spend xmas with daddy...the family is slowly falling apart...all of our elders and passing away in such a short time frame...

i was so crabby all weekend, i feel so bad for the kids...mommy was just not in a good way...They packed nick up yesterday, and his internet was turned off today...just more steps in getting him ready for deployment...means its coming closer...how do i keep my sanity? i will get throug it, no doubt...just dreading it alot...so much has happened so recently, this is just one more thing to get through...

well my eyes hurt, so im gonna end it now...Erin, i will do your tag thing when i am feeling better...hehe

1 comment:

Stump Home said...

Take all the time you need hon. I am sorry to hear about your grandfather.