Monday, April 28, 2008

another day another dollar....or not

i have been much busier then normal recently...ive been babysitting alot, and helping a friend with her running around, cuz she dosnt like to drive in Kalamazoo...so, last week logan had his eye appointment...he needs glasses...they say his actual vision is fine, but he has a stigmatism, so the glasses will help his eyes strain a little less, so they dont get as tired as they do now...at first he picked out some darker framed ones...and with his complexion and hair color they didnt look right...so then he picked out blue cuz hes a boy...but they looked kinda girly on him, so we found him some silver frames, and they looked incredible on him...such a handsome little man...ive been trying to get him all excited about them, and telling how cool it will be...i think he is getting there.lol...they are suppose to call this week for him to go in for his fitting and to pick them up...i remember my first glasses were ugly plastic bug eyed things..lol....i have pictures to burn with me in them! so, he only has to wear them for inside activities...he can take them off to go play in...good, seems how glasses are expensive...



Saturday I went to a wedding shower for Nicks cousins fiancee...it was alot of fun...lots of people there...i feel like i fit right in and i love that....i rode up there with some of the girls...thats a long drive...well, not so bad from Kalamazoo...but when you factor in the drive from Bangor to Kalamazoo, it adds alot of extra...we were gonna stay up there a little longer, but i needed to get back to pick the boys up...Denny was throwing himself a bday party, and i didnt want the kids around it...his parties get way too wild....



sunday the boys and i cleaned...they got both the bedrooms clean, and i got all the laundry and my room cleaned...they all helped sort socks, and put laundry away...they werent too happy about it, but they didnt fuss too much...well michael did, but he came around a little later when he seen everyone was helping but him...



today i got a ton of stuff done too...cleaned out old papers, dusted, sorted through some kitchen stuff...and alot more...i have managed to fill my garbage bin already, and the garbage man dosnt come till thursday..lol...ive been a cleaning machine!!! its so nice to walk into the house and not see so much clutter...its hard to keep up with the paper clutter that comes home with the boys from school...i have a hard time deciding what to keep, and what to toss....i try to keep some of them so i can track the progress through out the year...but i was keeping too much...



the boys have had a ton of homework lately...logans sightword list this time is huge....he gets so frustrated..the twins usually have math homework...Michael dosnt come home with much...so, he reads a little while im helping the other boys...he tried helping steven today, but he kept giving him the answers, so i had to make him stop...it was so cute that he was trying though...what a great big brother!!!



i ran into two friends today...my friend Theresa...i use to be really close to...her kids go to school with mine now...im really kind of excited about it...hopefully i will have someone to hang out with a little bit...and Eddie stopped by too...i havent seem him since before November...he just kind of disappears when the mood strikes him...he was one of the ones that helped me get through the really rough times when Denny left...he was a good friend through it all...him and Theresa have kids together...we were all friends back in the day...



i got some flowers today....Nick is so good to me....he always knows just when to throw that kind of stuff in there...ive never had anyone treat me the way he does...he is just so awesome...i miss him...i cant wait for this deployment to be over...then he can come home...that will be an awesome day...here is a pick of my flowers!!! so springy and pretty...einstein wouldnt leave them alone long enough for me to get a pic without him in them..lol..


Tuesday, April 22, 2008

slacker!

ok, not really, but it was funny anyway.. omg! im loving this weather....its so nice to be able to have all the windows open...every morning the birds wake me before the alarm does, and i love being woke up like that...its a wonderful start to the days...and all this sunshine!! i love it..i miss the sun so much in the winter, and it makes me very unmotivated...

Ive been working on the yard, but without a wheelbarrow, im kind of stuck.....some of the stuff back there is just way to heavy for me to carry out front...so, i guess im gonna have to rent one from the harware store....i asked to borrow one from someone, and they said yes, but it wasnt dropped off...so, i will just rent one! i want to get this done soon....i need my yard to look nice....

there are already a ton of gnats around here....as soon as the weather warmed they started swarming...driving me nuts already..i want to spray my yard, but not too excited about the chemicals....so not sure about that ....need to research that a bit more....

i had a huge blowout with the ex....kind of made me feel better...last week was pretty stressful, and i just want things to start moving in the right direction....ive decided to start doing little odd jobs for extra money...i want to put it all in savings....im tired of not having anything to fall back on...i need that peace of mind

well, time to get the kids....will write more later...sorry i havent kept up with my blog

Thursday, April 17, 2008

little stinker!

well...dominic had his first visit to the principals office yesteray...i knew it was only a matter of time before he did...he is stubborn as hell...they wanted him to practice his reading and he totally refused to do the work...to the point of disrupting the class....the parapro told him if he didnt do it, he would have to go to the office...well...he kicked the chair away, and said no, so she said ok, lets go...he started crying and said he would do it, but by then it was too late...she took him to he office, and he had to talk to the principal....boy did he learn his lesson....he is grounded till Sunday...not allowed, tv or anything like that...im really not suprised...

im so glad the weather is getting nicer..its been great being outside....i love spring....the temp is just right then... i still need to work on the back yard....ive been busy babysitting, and i have been exhausted...i cant get over being tired...i guess if i went to bed before 1am it might help...but, i like to talk to Nick before i go to bed...

i got my box that was sent a month ago..hehe...silly boy! anyway, i love having a laptop! whew, i can move around with it....although i havent been doing much with my myspace page, and things like that...ive been neglecting my blog too...he sent me a teddy bear that has camo clothes on...it plays music too...buti havent been able to get batteries for it yet...tomorrow i will have to pick some up...i want to hear what it plays...I got the ER series too...ive been watching that one episode as a time...lol, its funny how much the show has changed, and gotten better...

i havent been feeling the greatest lately...im a little stressed....but ive been really shaky lately...not all the time...mostly at night...and i wake up, and i swear im just as tired as i was when i went to bed...if i am not better by next week, i guess i will see a doctor..

oh, i made an eye appointment for logan....he is having trouble in school, andi want to make sure its not his eyes...i think he needs glasses..but we will see....i bet he would look adorable in glasses!!!but i am hoping at this point he dosnt need them...he is too rough with things still...i can just imagine them having to be replaced often....

Michael is reading so well now....and he likes to read...i need to get him some new books....im so glad he likes to read...makes me very happy....

steven has been doing ok in school...he likes it, and he tries really hard....

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Imperfections

Too often in life we give away the things the come into our lives because they are imperfect. We think these imperfections will cause so much pain and unhappiness. When in fact, it could be something in our lives that can bring a happiness into our hearts that we never would have known without them.

I watched a movie tonight called "The Memory Keepers Daughter". if you didn't watch it, i suggest you do. In this movie a man gave away his daughter because she was imperfect. To me this movie doesn't just symbolize the giving away of a child. To me it symbolizes mankind striving for perfection. It shows the weakness of humans. The way they purge their lives of the people and things that may remind them that they are in fact, imperfect themselves. It doesn't just include people, but things too.

Can something that is imperfect bring joy to your life? i believe it can. But how will you ever know if your trying so hard to hide its flaws?

I have been one of those people who have been purged from someones life because of my imperfections...But i am sure i can also say i have done the same...

Sunday, April 6, 2008

so many pretty lights

ok, not really pretty...but they sure did light up this 'hood....Stupid town....i cant stand this area, and i cant wait to get out of here...the house down the road first had a sex offender move into it...well, i dont see him at that address anymore so he must have moved....but in the last 2 months there has been heaving foot and vehicle traffic, people only staying for a few minutes at a time....they are constantly partying over there, which, i dotn have a problem with, but they could be a little more respectful about it...the cops are constantly there....they have been watching that house very closely.....well, a couple of nights ago all hell broke loose on this street....some pregnant lady was beaten and some other things went on....there were 7 cop cars, 3 volunteer fireman, the police chief and 2 ambulances....i spent an hour down there talking to them, telling them what i seen.....those of you that know me, know i cant stand a cop in uniform....they make me so nervous....by the time i was done, my whole body hurt from being so tense....

so, on to better subjects...ive been working out in the yard the last week.....there is so much to do...i dont know how im gonna accomplish it all on my own....next week i need to get a wheelbarrow, cuz there is no wayi can do the back yard without one...there is too muchstuff, and some of its too heavy...but it feels good to get outside in the fresh air....ive been so cooped up all winter....the boys are loving it too...they are excited to be able to go out in a jacket instead of a heavy coat....although this last winter they spent more time in the snow then any other year...

this weekend has been pretty decent....i feel like im getting a ton of excersise....it always makes fora better night sleep....i was hoping to get out of town and maybe catch a movie, but not this weekend...ah well..some other time...ive gotten alot done this weekend, so i feel accomplished...next year i wont have to do all this yard stuff alone!!!!! i cant wait....talking about nick coming home that way makes it feel alot closer then it is....i keep thinking when things pass by it will be the last time i hav to do that alone, and it makes me feel so great.....

as for the deployment, we are getting through it ok...staying strong....you hear about so many people fighting while there men are deployed, and i just dont understand it...but ah well, we are doing good with it and thats really all that matters....the bad days are getting less and less....life is moving foreward, and im counting down the days till his R&R....still a long time away, but im really looking foreward to it...i cant wait to see him again.......at least i get the web cam now...well, when his internet works....its not too reliable, but it does the job most of the time...

ok, back to work for me...break time is over!!!!!!