Monday, May 26, 2008

Happy Memorial Day

to everyone...on this day, dont forget the men and women, past, present, and future who serve to protect our way of life...take the time today to think about them, and say a short prayer for their safety....

This weekend has been really hard on me...I have had fun, but there is always just this part of me missing, and it always seems more prevelant when im trying to have a good time...Friday night, Bambi and pnut came over...pnut and the girls went to Jimmy's to work, and Bambi and I went flower shopping for their wedding on Saturday...Then we hit the Chinese place for lunch...was very yummy....when we were done, we went to Jimmy and Maria's house to try to figure out how to put together an arch for pictures at the wedding...
then came home to put together the bouqets....it was a fun time...

Sunday i went to my moms for dinner...i think i cried all the way there...I just didnt want to do it alone...its such a lonely feeling knowing your man is so far away...and there is nothing you can do to bring him closer...they showed some soldiers in ACU's before the race on TV...i cried then...I miss him....so much...i just want him home to enjoy these types of days with...

so, today is Memorial day, and I have yet to go out of the house...i just cant bring myself to do it...i dont want to...i just want to be alone today...just me and some sappy, make me cry movies...cuz thats all i can seem to do today anyway...whether im happy or sad, i just cry today...i know, pathetic right? i cant bring myself out of it today...

Next year, we can spend this Holiday together...and then, i will truly know i dont have to give him back to the Army...

Monday, May 19, 2008

tired version of the happy dance!

lol, and by tired, im mean exhuasted....I had 5 boys all weekend, and boy did they keep me going...andi found out that bribery works wonders! I told the boys that if they helped me without any fuss, they would be taken to Mc donalds fora treat..lol...and they did...they worked my butt off...which is good, cuz i can stand to lose a lil of it..hehe, i know you like it Nick...i promise not to work too much of it off, k? hehe...

so, Satruday we were all out in the yard working by 9am...hehe, im sure the neighbors loved hearing me throw big rocks into a metal wheel barrow...but paybacks are a bitch right? they shoudnt keep me up all hours of the night! anyway, i got the firepit cleaned out, now all i need to do is get some of the soot and broken glass out of there...that means digging a hole, and trying to find dirt to fill it, so, thats not gonna happen yet...i filled a whole trailer just from this ugly pit....but its done...i wont be able to grow grass there till next summer most likely, but at least i dont have to look at the rest of the uglyness anymore...3 of the rocks were too big for me to lift, so i had to roll them to the property line..lol Logan was very impressed that mom could lift some of them...i think i was his hero for the morning...so, saturday night, i did as i promised...and took them for a treat...

Sunday, they were all soooo whiney....i just kept having to shove them outside...there were quite a few time outs had yesterday...they just were not in a good way that day...was glad when it was bedtime...

oh, found out that Michael does not need glasses!!!! im relieved...i dont think he can handle them at this point in his life...so we are glad for that...his appointment was stressful....he couldnt follow the directions the eye doc was telling him...was glad when it was over...he said he shouldnt need to go back for a couple of years, unless we see problems...not sure where he got teh perfect eyesight from!

so, for the happy dance news! Logans MRI came out clear!! no brain abnormalities at all! im so greatful! he still has the epilepsy to deal with, but thats nothing compared to what it could have been if the MRI showed something on the brain scan...so, his next appointment is on my bday...and we will discuss what comes next at that one...i am so relieved...

so, now i have to go load up on some more coffee, so that i can get my house clean! everyone have a great week..

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

logan and a few other things

Logan had his MRI today, and things went ok...We got there and you could tell he was nervous, but everyone was great with him...he really started to get comfortable...they had to put in an IV just in case they needed to sedate him...and that kinda freaked him out, but its because when they put it in blood went everywhere...him and blood dont get along very well...he settle down fast though...he didnt even cry when they put it in...but he was pretty freaked...they talked to him about what would happen, and even let him see the machine before they made him go in to have it done...so, they did guided imagery to get him through the MRI and the woman who did it was excellent with him...he didnt need to be sedated!!!! i was so happy, and so proud of him for laying still that long...after the MRI we went into the room so they could take the IV out and we could get ready to go...the whole day went well, untill they took it out...the stress of the day finally caught up with my little logan...he got white as a ghost, and threw up all over! poor thing, i felt aweful for him...then, he got even more pale, and almost passed out! we got him laid down, the area around his mouth and nose started turning blue...i freaked....the nurse brought a cool cloth in for him...and in a few minutes he was fine....i think the day just finally caught up with him...

after that we hit a buffet for lunch, and went to the pet store, and the dollar store...then home to get his brothers...he really enjoyed his time alone with me...he talked constantly about everything..lol..it was really cute...

so this weekend Bambi and i were suppose to have the weekend to ourselves so that we could get the flower arrangements started for her wedding...but now its been postponed till next weekend...denny isnt taking the boys this weekend, and there is no way we could do all that with them here...and we want some time with no kids...so next weekend it is then....im excited about it...we never get any time alone to be friends...its always with kids, or the men too..

Mark and bambi are getting married on the 31st, and i am so excited for them...its been a long time coming, and im happy they got to this point...

the rest of this week is filled with babysitting, appts. and cleaning...oh the life of me!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Mothers Day

I hope everyone had a great Mothers Day...Really this year i feel like i could have skipped the day all together...We started the day out with an extra kid...ifinally contacted his mother to come get him...didnt give her a choice, told her where we would be, and that she could meet us there to pick him up...We left to go get breakfast, and the one restaraunt here in town that isnt fast food has shut down, sooo, McDonalds it was...ick! But the weather was nasty, and i didnt feel like leaving town for breakfast...So, after such a yummy breakfast, and getting soaked going from van to building back to van and home again, i had to takea hot shower to warm back up..lol...

while in the shower, my mom calls me...2 days earlier i had called to try to make plans with her this weekend to celebrate moms day...she said after she talked to my gma she would call me back so we could plan something...i tried to get her to come to our picnic on Saturday, but she said it was the only day she would have off and alone to get things cleaned up before her surgery on the 21st...ok, fine, i understand that...i take advantage of my weekends without the boys to do my heavy cleaning...well, i called her while we were on our picnic to see if she had talked to my gma yet, and she was shopping! shopping is not cleaning....she didnt give me an answer, so back to the phone call while i was in the shower....i had already told the boys they would see her today, but i guess she seen it differently...our plans together went out the window....they went to teh casino instead....when i asked what the plans where, she said, oh, me and gma are going to a casino...now correct me if im wrong, but that plan obviously did not include the boys and I....funny how that happens...but, woudnt be the first time....oh, and my boys, totally disappointed...they wanted to see grandma...

so, after that, i put my jammies on, and the boys and i watched Chicken little...it was such a cute movie...im gonna have to get that one...then we just hung out for the rest of the day....but they were very crabby...I was glad it was bedtime, and honestly, i think they were too.....i went to bed shortly after they fell asleep, just to get the day over with...

oh, and the money that would have gone to moms day present....i sent a friend flowers instead...Happy Mothers day

Friday, May 9, 2008

just a few things

The last couple of weeks it feels like i have been running the kids around like crazy...so much that i havent been able to talk to Nick as much, and its really getting to me...His internet has been messing up, and all the kids appointments have been keeping me away during alot of the times he is on...its frustrating...besides the fact that, i just want him home...im feeling sorry for myself, but im allowed that once in a while...Most days im pretty strong about him being gone, but these last couple of days have been rough...if i could have slept the day away, i would have...

So, ive been babysitting...and i am beginning to think i have him more then his own mom...to the point of this child becoming a part of the family...Most of the things we do as a family he is there for now...im gonna miss him when he dosnt come here anymore...lol, its like having triplets....he is 5, just like the twins...

i mowed the whole lawn today...i love to do it, cuz it makes for such a nice workout...I also got the living room and the kitchen cleaned and the laundry done....im gonna sleep great tonight...its nice to have things done for mommy's day weekend...i dont have to worry about a mess for my day...

i think the boys and i are gonna go have a picnic tomorrow...i wanted to do it on mothers day but its suppose to rain, so we will do it saturday instead...not sure yet..

Sunday, May 4, 2008

just an update

it seems the last couple of weeks i have been so busy...eye appointments, stuff for school, home, lots of stuff! Thursday i took logan to get his glasses...he looks so cute in them...when I am on my desktop i will post pictures of him in them...i have to take him in and have them adjusted though...they are hurting the backs of his ears pretty bad...

Thursday night i took Ronnie to walmart and she talked me into buying myself some new clothes...i hardly ever buy myself anything, so it was hard for me to spend that money...i just hate spending money on myself...it makes me feel guilty...Nick teased me about it...he says i should do it once in a while too...i just dont like to...and i dont like for people to buy me things either...i would much rather spend the money on the boys...so now i have some cute summer dresses....

Saturday I took the boys to Chuck E. Cheese....Ramiah, Chris and the kids came too...we had fun...we went early so it wouldnt be so crowded...i spent way too much money...but its the first time we went out as a family since before Christmas...so, it was nice to get out like that...I hadnt been there in almost 6 years....it was kinda hot in there, so it was getting a little irritated towards the end...the noise, the heat, and the fact that things werent working, and my throat was starting to hurt...the combination of all that finally got to me at the end of the day...

after that i felt the need to do some necklaces so i picked up some stones and wire....i made my first necklace that way last night...it didnt turn out the greatest, but practice makes perfect...so, i will keep working at it...

I got home, and my house had been broken into...kinda strange though, nothing was missing...why the hell would someone come into the house and not take or disturb anything...so, i called and made a report, and if i find anything really is missing then at least the report is made out....i was pretty creeped out last night...

Today, i went to hang out with Bambi's family for a while...they were working on Jimmy and Maria's house, and then had dinner and an egg hunt for the kids...The house they bought is so beautiful...and they have a ton of land...its gonna be a great place when they are all done with it...And those two are so adorable together...its like they just fit...kinda like me and Nick...I had never really had the chance to talk to Maria before, so it was nice to get to know her better...

I needed to mow the lawn today, but by the time i got home, i was too tired...Not feeling all that great, so i will do it tomorrow....Nick and i picked out paint.... i was gonna pick it up on Friday night after Denny got the kids, but he didnt get them till Saturday night...so, im gonna go on Tuesday and pick it up...We picked out a darker color for the bedroom and a pretty green color for the bathroom....im pretty excited to do it...i had paint that i bought just after denny left, but i decided i wanted to go darker, so, im gonna sell that and do what nick and i picked out...

I had been so busy lately, that nick and I had been missing each other online, and we dont talk on the phone much, so we hadnt been talking much this last week...i was starting to miss him pretty bad...I got to talk to him on the phone tonight, its always so great to hear his voice...we have almost 5 months down...i sure hope the rest of this deployment flies by...i cant wait to have him home...

I will post the pics of the last couple of days tomorrow when i have a chance to load them onto the computer...