Sunday, June 29, 2008

is it November yet? :(

No, i guess it isnt yet huh? so, we have 6 1/2 months down on this deployment, and some days it seems we have forever more to go...but then i think about it, and we are on the last leg of this part of our lives...soon it wont be like this anymore...we still have a ways to go, but we are on the final count down...there are some days lately that it seems hard to even function...my heart aches sometimes from missing him so much...i just want him home...
i need something to keep my mind off the rest of the time we have to wait...i want to go to school so bad...but i cant because of the stupid student loans from before...i just need something to make this time seem less ominous...its overwhelming my every thought...its all worth it of course, but i need to find something to keep myself busy...i cant go do anything, because my van is dying...im stuck here, and i feel totally useless...

ok, so now that i have my frustrations out, i will move on...The kids have been in summer school this week, and they seem to really enjoy it...its all at michaels school...Logan thinks he is a big shot because he is in the big kids school...the twins are a little intimidated by it...because the middle school kids are there at this point too...they think its pretty cool though, they eat breakfast there...we dont have to get up as early that way...and they are happy because sometimes they can choose chocolate milk in the morning..lol...they dont get to do that at home...

most of our summer has just been us hanging out here at home...gas prices are too dang high to really go too many places...the boys do have a few little girl friends that come from down the road...they all jump on the trampoline together...its nice that the kids finally have some friends around here...

the neighborhood has been so much noisier since summer hit...there is a house down the road that has people in and out of it 24/7...the cops still watch it all the time...but now they have made friends with another house on the block, and they are constantly going back and forth between the two...

the house seems to be getting more organized...seems ive been working on that for about 2 years now...i really dont know what more to do with it...i always feel like we just have too much stuff...but yet, ive gotten rid of so much...sometimes i think if someone could just come in here and get me organized, then i could keep it that way...but, part of the problem is i have no storage space...denny still has the garage packed with stuff, and the shed is full of mold cuz it leaks...so most things have to be stored in the house...im thinking of just going back on my word, and telling him that he needs to get his crap out of there...but i have a hard time with that....i dont like the idea of going back on my word...and it frustrates me that i know i need to....

its been a quiet weekend around here...the boys are wtih denny, and i have spent the weekend alone...i slept in, watched movies, and did some laundry...i enjoy the quiet time, but i miss the boys when they are gone...i cant wait for them to come home tonight...

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