Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween!!!

Its Halloween!! woohooo! i just dropped the boys off today, and boy o boy do the teachers have their hands full today...lol...all the kids are so hyper with excitement...haha, its gonna be a long day for them...

So, i get to go out tonight...i cant wait...i havent been out in so long...Its just not the same without Nick...This will probably be the last time i am out to the bar before he comes home...I am excited about that...The closer it gets to seeing him, the more i miss him, and the more doing the things we will be doing together just dosnt seem right without him...

Unfortunately, where am going, is where i use to hang out when i was younger... i am a little nervous about that! there are some people i just dont really want to see..There are some people i am going with ...neighbors, and my mom, and maybe another friend...not my normal group of people, but maybe there will be less drama that way anyway...i hope at least...and it will be nice to get out of that "normal" group of people...there are some things going on wtih them i just dont like...

well, hope everyone has a great Halloween, and i will post pictures from the day tomorrow...

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Thursday, October 30, 2008

Political Funk

ugh, I seriously cant wait till this election is over...im tired of people being bitchy...why can you not just respect that people have their opinions and stop being such a bitch.....im just getting interested in politics this year, and my friend Jess has been very informative...and i am so greatful for that, cuz when it comes to government things i have no idea what im talking about...But this time around, i just cant wait till its over...i dont want to see people arguing about it anymore...im not super educated on it...and i like to learn about it, but not if people are going to be nasty about it all...

Dont talk down to me...i may not be an army wife or have some high end job, but hell if i didnt run a construction business for 10 years, and apartment buildings....so dont try to make me feel like your better then i am...really, fuck you...and that is me being nice...those comments werent directed towards me, but they might as well have been...

anyway, on to fun things....the boys are totally excited for Halloween tomorrow..they each have something going on at school...and then they get to do the trick or treating and go to daddies...I am suppose to go out tomorrow night, but some unexpected expenses came up, sooo that idea is shot down..i have been looking foreward to it for a while now...ugh! i just want to be around people..is that to much to ask?

anyway, i mostly needed to vent today, i will write more tomorrow night after trick or treating...

Monday, October 27, 2008

Snow?

is it really that time already...time for snow? I am not ready for it! i went to go pay some bills today, and as soon as i walked out the door it started to snow... i dont mind the snow, its the fact that i have to do the shoveling that comes along with it...the one good thing about this season is it just means its closer to the end of all this stuff going on! so maybe i shouldnt complain too much..lol...

the boys are excited for it...i just dropped a bunch of money on coats...and still have to get snow pants and boots...i havent figure out yet how im gonna accomplish that, but well, i will..i always do...

i swear the more i clean the dirtier this house gets....how is that possible!? maybe my standards of how it should look have just gone up...i dont know...all i know is i get one room done, and all the others go to hell..The boys and i worked hard on their rooms over the weekend, and they are looking pretty good...the kitchen and the living room...not so good...im no tgood at being organized...i wish i were...someone needs to teach me, cuz i obviously didnt inherit that skill...i couldnt keep a house clean to save my life...

i got the main part of Nicks dresser put together...now for the drawers...unfortunately my screwdriver is stripped out, and wont work on it, so i need to get another...i want to get it done so i dont have to think about it anymore..lol...

The boys have class parties this week, and a little parade in their costumes...they are definately excited about that...more excited about the candy i think..lol...

ok, off to get the kitchen started..yay , o joy, so fun...lol

Sunday, October 26, 2008

not long now

i swear the next month is just going to crawl by...its getting closer, and the days are dragging...ugh! The boys are excited and anxious and so am i...December means alot of different things to me, and i cant wait for it! finally things are coming to a close like they should have a while ago...im just so hopeful with it all....

Last week wasnt anything too great...I did alot of babysitting so hopefully that helps with Christmas this year...its something im not looking foreward to again this year, because just like last year, i have to say goodbye to Nick just before...So its gonna be pretty sad...

I am glad for Halloween this year....this kids will have fun...and im going out after trick or treating hopefully...i havent been out in over 6 months, and its time....i need to have a little fun...my neighbors husband is in a band, and they are playing at the bar we are going to...so im gonna be a groupie for the night...lol....

This week is gonna go fast hopefully...the boys all have parties, and things like that at school...ive been working on getting the house back to looking the way it should...seems to be a no win situation...but im trying...with babysitting so much it just seems like the house keeps getting tore apart...

I bug bombed the back room the other day so i could go back there and clean part of it out...and omg, when i went to air it out, you should have seen all the bugs...there were 6 very big spiders dead, and lots of black bugs....and i found another place it is leaking back there...unfortunately, im probably gonna have to replace most of the drywall, and insulation, and some of the flooring...same in the bathroom...the vent in there is leaking, and the ceiling is starting to sag...and it looks as if the last time we had lots of hard rain that it might have traveled down into the wall also...This house looks so nice on the surface, but when you dig into it, its falling apart...leaking everywhere, and just not a healthy place to be...my sinuses are worse this year then they have ever been...

I was going to take the boys to get pumpkins today, but they arent getting their rooms clean like i asked, so none this year for them...i guess next time they should listen to me...but im not gonna reward them for not listening...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

vroom vroom

my neighbor wanted to know how i got my van to sound like a racecar..lol....i told him it could be several things...He wanted to know if it had a special exhaust pipe put on it...i told him it was special indeed...so special, it has a hole in it, and thats prolly why it sounds like that...LMAO....If he thinks its so special he can have the damn thing..lol...its been dying for a year anyway...The oil leaks, the radiator leaks, the transmission leaks...oh, and i think there is a leak in the brake lines also...you want it, you can have it...ok, not really, i need it....but you get the idea..silly people

I got pulled over yesterday for the 2nd time in 2 months...no ticket, but it was really kind of funny...when i renewed my plates they gave me a paper one for the window...well, it expired yesterday, and I havent gotten my plates in the mail, so i had to go to the Secratary of state and get it all worked out...they gave me a new one so that i wouldnt get pulled over...hehe, well the cop only seen the expired plate on the back, not paper plate in the window...we had a good laugh about it...im still laughing now...i swear they are just looking for me..lol

The boys and i are really enjoying fall....the cooler weather has been fun to play in...But i play hell trying to get michael to keep his shoes and socks on...he is like him mom and grandma, he hates shoes...we played in the leaves the other day when i was babysitting....it was fun, i joined in the leaf fight...when i took my shower later, i had little bits of leaf everywhere...and i mean everywhere.lol...it was fun though...


Xmas is getting closer...so far I have 4 things bought....and one freebie on the way...One of my SG girls is sending a digital camera for Logan, cuz his wont hold a charge anymore, and its one with an internal battery that Nick gave him....So one of the girls found her old one, and is letting him have it...He is gonna love it!

I think we are gonna try to go this weekend and get pumpkins...im not realy sure yet if we are going to do them this year....and its suppose to rain, so we will see...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

our new member


well, nick and the boys and i have a new member to are little crew...i cant wait for nick to meet her, she is adorable...she came to me named Pantera, but i think Hannah, or Freja suits her better...so...here she is...Introducing the un-named one...


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Todays motivation

"Happiness is a Swedish sunset; it is there for all, but most of us look the other way and lose it."
--Mark Twain

"Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, whatever state I may be in, therein to be content"

--Helen Keller

Have you ever noticed how when things are going well they seem to keep going well, and when things are going wrong they seem to keep going wrong? By focusing on the positive, and learning to be content and happy in every situation, you can interrupt any downward momentum. By seeing the positive, however small, in every situation, you are moving your life into the path of things going well. Seeing the positive in every situation is simple, but difficult at the same time. It is however tremendously powerful, and worth the effort. Practice this, and you will see results.

Be Positive

Sunday, October 19, 2008

All the pretty colors

I love fall...the brisk air, the excitement of the coming winter, and the changing leaves...the colors are so pretty right now...i took a walk the other day so i could get pictures for Nick...they turned out pretty good...


of course i had to get one of the boys...i have more pics, but dont feel like uploading them...they are on my myspace profile if anyone else wants to see them...

It is getting closer to seeing Nick...I can barely contain my excitement most of the time...and the days have been dragging the closer it gets...


I dont have the boys this weekend, but im babysitting, so i havent really gotten any time to be alone and relax, but at least im making money...its strange not having mine here, but having someone else's kids..lol, oh well....keeps me busy...

I am so tired lately...i dont know if its the cooler weather, or allergies, but i feel like i can sleep just about any time....im exhausted...

My lawnmower broke...it really sucks...the neighbor says its just the blade, but i know nothing about that kind of stuff....they were nice enough to mow my yard last week...i feel bad when people do that kind of stuff for me...

well im off for now, guess i didnt have as much to talk about as i thought..lol...









Monday, October 13, 2008

Falling behind

im completely falling behind on everything, including this blog...with the kids being sick, and then me not feeling well, i am just falling farther behind every day...but, as soon as everyone is healthy again, my house will get back to normal...

Not a whole lot has been going on...the boys had conferences last week....Stevens teacher was sick, so we didnt get to meet with her...dominics teacher had nothing but great things to say...she was his teacher last year also, and she said that he has come so far..im really excited about that..Logans teacher and i have decided to set up an IEP meeting for him...he is falling farther behind...we arent sure why, because he is so smart...he can remember just about everything you tell him...he had his eyes tested at school, and they seem to think he has a peripheral vision problem, not just an astigmatism...so we are gonna see about getting him to an eye specialist...I met with all of michaels teachers, and i had some concerns, but we talked and got it all worked out...this year he is going from class to class for different subjects, and i dont think he is doing well with it...And he isnt bringing his homework home...so we have to come up with some way for me to know he has homework...i think he is getting frustrated at this point, because things are getting harder for him...

My one exciting thing last week....The police showed up here looking for Denny and his girlfriend...Seems they have been giving this as their address and that pisses me off...The cop didnt believe i was me, so i had to dig out my drivers license, to prove i wasnt Denny's girlfriend...then he started asking a bunch of personal questions about why he left and, who he has been with, and a whole bunch of stuff like that...i was mad that he was making me feel like the one in trouble...and mad that Denny thinks he has a right to give out this address still...he has been gone for 3 years...Jerk!

The twins have well child check ups this afternoon....i cant wait to hear how they are doing...I am sure everything is all good with them...

There is nothing exciting happening this week...we just finished a 4 day weekend with the boys...they were pretty bored by Sunday...

Nick is moving rooms, so i wont see him online for a few days i think...Hopefully they will be set back up by Tuesday...his day off...i cant wait till this deployment is over....im just ready for him to be home...

Friday, October 10, 2008

10 month Happy dance!!!!

woohoo, yeah thats right! 10 months down on this deployment....isnt it awesome!!!! woot! we havent seen each other for 11 months and im sooooo ready for r&r....not long now! yay! we can see the light at the end of all this! its about damn time....so anyway thats it for now....will write more later.lol

Sunday, October 5, 2008

eh.

The last couple of weeks have been kinda long...all the boys have been sick..one right after another...Michaels only lasted a day..i swear he has an immune system made of steel...dominic was sick all last weekend, but didnt miss any school...then Steven got sick last Tuesday, and missed 3 days of school...He ended up with Tonsilitis...to then i get a call that from Denny's girlfriend saying Logan was sick...So they brought him home so i could take him to the doctor...he has tonsilitis also...ugh! im exhausted physically and emotionally from t hem being sick....its rough on us moms cuz we worry so much...really though, i wouldnt have it any other way..

things arent going too bad...when i came home from taking logan in on Saturday there was a box sitting on my front porch...this is what was inside *sigh* he loves me!

Things are going ok...i havent gotten a phone call from Nick in almost 2 weeks now...but ive talked to him online..the phones are down where he is working...sure cant wait till they are fixed..we are almost 10 months in to this deployment...11 months since i last seen him..im ready for r&r...which is coming up soon...i need it...he needs it...Thanksgiving is gonna rock this year

Denny called me at 8:30 tonight and asked if he could keep the boys overnight, and take them to school in the morning...i know it shouldnt, but it makes me uneasy...i think because its something new, and im just not use to it...im glad the boys get the extra attention from him, but on the other hand, he makes me nervous...not jealous or anything...i would have loved to have had a relationship with my dad, but its just all new to me...They need this attention from him...i just havent learned how to handle it yet...

conferences are this week...I am excited to hear how the kids are doing...my prediction is the report will be good for the twins...Logan, they will tell me is struggling still...and michael, well, he isnt doing as well this year as he has in past years...i think his teachers are not very understanding to his situation...i dont know, i could be wrong on it all..but it means a 4 day weekend next weekend...so, i will have to find things for the boys to do...hopefully they wont be too bored...

about 2 more months and all this legal crap should be done...im looking foreward to it...i need it to be done...i need something in my life to come to a completion...all these things hanging over my head is getting a bit overwhelming....i just need some peace of mind....

i would write more, but really im not in a very good mood tonight, so unless i want to turn this into a rant, i think i will go now...nighty night