Monday, November 24, 2008

super sprayer

i found this and had to share...this is real talent!

Super Sprayer - The best bloopers are a click away

Saturday, November 22, 2008

waiting :)

Waiting is always the hardest part...I am so anxious to see him...It is hard to believe within a couple of days i will get to hug my man!! The boys are overly hyper because they know he will be here soon...It all feels real now...I am exhausted...I slept last night, but i must have tossed and turned a lot because my neck is hurting, and i have a headache...I have been trying to stay as busy as possible today...its easy to do when you have to try to keep the house in order with 5 boys in it! But im keeping up with it ok i think...well, back to work

Friday, November 21, 2008

very very very very very very very soon

is that enough very's for you? hehe...i get to hold my Soldier soon...cant say when its not allowed...but its soon...its been a year since i put my arms around my man, and im so excited that i get to do like a blubbering idiot right now...i cry at every just so excited that we have made it almost a year into this deployment...not long now, and he will be home for good....and we can begin...ok, im off to get things done...last minute stuff on the i dont have to worry about it while he is here..

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

some deep thought

My good friend Erin posted this poem in her blog...and it made me cry, so i am passing it on...Not often does poetry touch me in a way this one did..and when i was reading it, i wasnt envisioning a tree...i was envisioning the way i was left bare and alone when my marriage ended, and what it took for me to truly see the man that was standing right by my side...i just love it

~ Macrina Wiederkehr

she celebrated the sacrament of letting go.
First she surrendered her green,
then the orange, yellow, and red
finally she let go of her brown.
Shedding her last leaf
she stood empty and silent, stripped bare.
Leaning against the winter sky
she began her vigil of trust.

Shedding her last leaf
she watched its journey to the ground.
She stood in silence
wearing the color of emptiness,
her branches wondering;
How do you give shade with so much gone?

And then,
the sacrament of waiting began.
The sunrise and sunset watched with tenderness.
Clothing her with silhouettes
they kept her hope alive.

They helped her understand that
her vulnerability,
her dependence and need,
her emptiness,
her readiness to receive
were giving her a new kind of beauty.
Every morning and every evening they stood in silence
and celebrated together
the sacrament of waiting.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Pagan Pictures, Images and Photos

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Happy Saturday

wow, this day has gone fast...of course that could be because i have slept through most of it..and im still tired...exhausted in fact...

i made a list of things to get done while the boys are at their dads house, and i havent gotten anything accomplished..but eh, i will get it done...hopefully..

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Single digits!

about the title, not allowed to explain it...but those who know me, know the deal! lol

so i swear i have been scouring my house this last week...ive never been on such a cleaning spree...its been nice, the more i get my house in order the more peaceful it feels...i want to finish it this weekend, so the waiting can be done in peace...i need some right now...

sleeping has been non existent lately...its the anticipation i happens every time...i didnt figure it would be any different this time..but im exhausted, and i feel like im running off a gonna crash and burn soon...i hope its this weekend while the boys are gone...

the one room i cant seem to get in order is the bedroom...not sure why...just feels like everytime i get to working on it, i run out of ambition...

omg, i took Nicks clothes out to wash them so they are fresh when he gets home, and they still smelled like him....its been a year, how is that even possible? wow, talk about catching me off my guard and throwing off my balance....geeze....i didnt want to throw them in the would have gotten ride of his smell...ugh, but i did...

i started a new chore system for the boys, and they seem to be taking to it well...its kind of like a points system of sorts...we will see if it continues to be successful...i hope so...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Veterans day 2008

Today, take some quiet time and really think hard about why you need to thank a Veteran (past and present)...Whether your for war, or against it, they keep you safe..They give there lives, they give up time with their families, they dont always get to be around to watch their children grow...Remember that alot of you couldnt handle some of the things these men and woman see every day..

Today i challenge you to get involved...Do something for someone you wouldnt normally would be especially great if you could do it for a veteran, but if you cant, anyone will do...Just make a difference the way these men and woman do everyday while they are fighting for us...

To my own personal Soldier boy...I love you...Not long now baby! i will see you soon..

I have a family full of veterans...too many to list this time around..but, maybe i will work on that today, so that i can give them the attention they deserve..Now im going to attempt to get through the day without tears, but really thats a lost cause...I cant help but get tears in my eyes on this day...It means so much to me...even before Nick, it meant so much to me...but now i have more reason...

Happy Veterans Day Pictures, Images and Photos

Sunday, November 9, 2008

11 months down and twilight

today marks 11 months down on this deployment! im so excited that the end is coming closer...I have to say, its been rough, i miss him....but its really been easier and faster then i thought it would be...And i think going through this kind of thing has made us a stronger couple then i ever could have dealing with a separation like this i learn more about myself every day, and him too...and i think what we have accomplished is so great! There are times i just wanted to sleep through the whole deployment, but ive come to realize if i had, i wouldnt be where i am today...on a mental level...I have just learned so much...I have pulled away from my meditating and things like that...because even though im dealing with it so well, i do have a hard time focusing on that kind of thing...and since i cant do it without my mind wandering, i decided to put that all on hold till i could do it the right way...
So, i am raising my glass in a toast tonight, for the end is getting near, and may the God and Goddess keep him safe, till he is home for good...

ok, now on to the twilight dont normally get into the hype of what people are doing...but there was alot of talk about the Twilight series...especially with the impending movie....and so i bought the first 2 books in the 4 book series...and let me tell you...i can barely put the first one down...It has had me in a trance all is an absolutely beautiful story! and i cant wait till i have read all of them!!!! if you havent read these books, i recomend it!

Little Red Riding Hood

ok, so back in the day, the story of little red riding hood, did the wolf eat the grandma before he got in her bed?

a question Ramiah asked me

anyone have any answers?

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A day in the Life of a Soldiers girl

so the title really dosnt fit anything i felt like talking about..haha, but im in a mood...i realized this morning that i forgot to post Halloween pics, as i said i here are a few..

the big green guy is the boys dad..he walked around on stilts all feet and legs were hurting by the time i was done walking, i cant imagine how his were feeling...the boys enjoyed the attention from it good time was had my all..

after they went with their dad, i headed to the bar...the band was great! i loved it...i danced, and choked on other peoples smoke all night long..ok, so the smoke part wasnt the greatest, but i guess we have to pay for having fun right! on the way home, my moms jeep broke...a ball joint..thank goodness it happened as she was pulling out of a parking lot instead of minutes earlier when we were going 60mph...

Last saturday i spent drowning myself with water to try and get all that smoke out of my system..yeah, didnt work so well...i ended up with a sinus infection...its been a fun week..i started feeling better by sunday, but Monday all hell broke loose with it and i slept all day on Wednesday i was feeling better, but very dizzy..stupid sinuses! Stupid Honeslty i think my body was just in shock from getting out of the house...

This weekend are are doing a lot of nothing...I have been on a cleaning frenzy for the last 2 days...its making the house look no complaining trying hard to get the bedroom organized and put together...i think i have a handle on all the school work the kids keep bringing home...with 4 boys in school, i seem to be drowning on papers...and i cant decide which ones to keep, and which to so sentimental when it comes to that stuff...but it leaves me ina sea of papers...The boys rooms have some organization to them now, so that makes it easier...and the boys are enjoying their rooms more...

So, Nicks visit is getting closer...i cant believe in 10 days it will be a year since i seen him...this deployment has been an experience i dont wish to repeat! we have done well with it...but im ready for the next part of our lives....After his midtour leave, he really dosnt have too much longer...Thank the Gods for making it later in the deployment! i think i would have been a huge mess if his leave would have been sooner rather then later...The next time i say goodbye it will only be for a short time...ok, well short for us it will be the last time! its been 2.5 years of separation, and im ready to have him home...We have some great things planned while he is home, and i cant wait for that...I am trying not to get too excited, but i cant help myself...Right now i think it just seems like a dream...

So the weather got really cold all the sudden! it was 70 last week, and in the 30's this week...what a shock to the system...guess that means i have to stay inside and clean more! haha, oh well...its that time of year just not looking foreward to digging myself out all winter..

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Grow up

to all those who feel the need to talk about me....grow up would you? i mean come on...we are all adults...this isn't high school anymore....go ahead and be mad at me...i have way too much going on in my life at the moment to deal with that...

this is the last time i will touch this subject, because honestly, im way too old for that petty crap...

oh, and im sure this will keep my name on your lips for another couple of will get you through xmas at least...