Tuesday, April 28, 2009

exactly 2 weeks

till Nick comes home for good! I am getting so excited! I cant believe the time has finally come for us not to be apart anymore..we did it! we made it! now we can move on! woohooo!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Oh my storms!

This weekend was interesting. At least weather wise. Up until Friday, i thought that the weekend was going to be warm and sunny. I had made plans to take the boys on a picnic and everything. We never even left the house except to go to the gas station today. Friday was beautiful, and hot! it was great..

Saturday morning we woke to beautiful sunshine, and warm weather. by 11am, we had downpours. it cleared up for an hour, then downpour the rest of the day. In all i think we had 7 storms in one day! it was amazing, but sooo gloomy...I do love a good storm.

Part of one of our branches came down on Saturday morning. Part of it is still hanging up there, so i can let the kids play under the tree at all. I am gonna have to figure out how to get that down.

They boys watched movies most of Saturday. Normally i dont let them sit in front of the tv all day, but it was so nasty out. Today i got the paints out, and let them paint a bunch. They had fun with it.

i havent heard back from the bank i applied to yet :( i really want this job. I really want just about any job at this point.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

glad its almost bedtime

Last night i was awake until about 3 am. So i got about 3.5 hours of sleep, if even that. I woke before the alarm went off. I should have gone to bed early tonight, i had every intention of doing that. I don't know why, but my mind just wouldn't shut down last night.

So, im glad today is done with. First because its another day closer to Nick coming home, second because it was just a crappy day. Well the weather was nice, but other then that, i just couldn't function. I have had pretty limited communication with Nick. He has been really busy, and by the time he gets off work, its after 11pm here.

I missed him so much today. There are those days where i just dont even want to function. I dont like him being so far from me. There is something missing when he is not near. I feel so weak complianing about 3 weeks of him being gone. Especially with what we already have behind us. We have been apart so much, now i just want him home. I know its soon, but today was just emotional for me. I am trying to stay strong, but at this point I'm not sure i have that left in me.

Tonight I took the kids out to eat, i just didnt have the energy to cook. I started to get stuff around to make dinner, and i was instantly tired. When we came home from dinner, the bird cage was tipped over, and there was no bird. Finally she came out of hiding, and after getting her cage put back together, she eventually flew back into it. took a while though. Then i walked into the kitchen to put some fresh water in her dish, and there were little tiny black ants all over one of the windows. Really if its not one thing its another in this house.

so, after all that, im sitting my happy ass on the couch feeling sorry for myself...its ok though, i am allowed to do it once in a while...lol

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Stuff

Well its been 5 whole days since Nick went back to Hawaii...Its been hard...I dont think it gets any easier as time goes by...i know its only for a couple of weeks, but it sucks...I want him here with me...I dont like sleeping alone, i dont like waking up alone...My  best friend is so far away, and its just no fun anymore (not that it ever really was)...I miss him...i miss experiencing life with him...i hope the next couple of weeks fly by fast...

Things are going ok...The weather finally cleared up today, after several days of yuckiness...I dont mind the rain, but it was so cold along with it...I just needed to see some sunshine...The next couple of days its suppose to be beautiful...I am looking foreward to that...I am thinking of taking the boys for a picnic this weekend...we will see...ive been trying to get people to go with me, but so far its been a no go for everyone...people are busy with life...so i think i will just take the boys to the park here in town...its cheaper that way anyway...

I put in an application for a teller position at a bank today...sent in my application, and resume...i hope i get it...send some good thoughts my way about it...I need a job, im tired of being broke, i need one close because at this point i have no vehicle of my own...this job would be perfect for me...great hours too...i would only have to find someone to watch the boys 4 hours a week...the rest of the time they would be at school..Not sure what i would do about the summer though...thats my biggest concern...i wouldnt make enough to pay for daycare for all 4 of them...but i want this job, i would just have to work it out...somehow....

so about not having a vehicle...the van pretty much died for good while Nick was home...not sure if i blogged about that or not...tonight im too lazy to go back and read the old ones...Nick helped me get it fixed, and bought a new battery for it, and that didnt take care of the problem...come to find out, its some part in the computer...well, as old as the van is, and as many miles thats on it, its just not worth fixing...to many things are going wrong on it...its frustrating knowing that i dont have a car...especially seems how i have 4 kids...so, im hoping to really save a bunch over the summer, so that i can save up for one...My van really isnt mine anyway...it could be taken from me at any time...

so i am going to separate this blog a little more...i want to start journaling about our experience of being engaged, and the wedding planning, so i am going to do separate entries about that when the time comes...just to let you know ahead of time...I am keeping only one blog, but i may have more entries because of that...




Tuesday, April 21, 2009

testing

testing this from my email

--
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.... You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give my self reasons why I CAN. at times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person."


Friday, April 17, 2009

We Are

ENGAGED!

yep, thats right folks! He asked me yesterday morning...it was the greatest feeling ever..and yes, i cried...happy tears of course!

we were just hanging out in our jammies, and he went upstairs..well i decided to start some laundry, and when i came out of the laundry room he told me to sit down...haha, i told him i cant, i have things to do...he said just sit, so i did, and he said that it wasnt fancy, but that he thought it was the perfect moment, us in our pajamas, at home where we belong, and then he opened a box, and said will you spend the rest of your life with me...it was just the greatest...it was the perfect way!

so now, im a fiancee...woohoo!

Updating

I will have to do this in 2 posts...cuz i have good news, and i dont want to mix it in with this...lol...

About 2 hours ago i dropped Nick off at the airport for him to go back to Hawaii...good news is, its only for 3-4 weeks...we are on the last stretch of being long distance! we made it...its a relief...especially with so many people fighting us on being together...well, poo on you all...lol..

we had a great time these last few weeks...they went by so fast...

we had a cook out 2 weeks ago..it was a great sucess...lots of people showed up..mostly family...Not a whole lot of friends...but its ok, family are friends too...we had lots of yummy food, and fun...Music was blaring, darts were played....a good time had by all...my mom made some wonderful brownies...omg, i had a hard time not eating them all! and she made her homemade mac and cheese...it is one of my all time favorites!

Last friday we went to a hockey game, the boys had a blast..i have some pictures of that too...It was a surprise for the boys...they didnt even know where we were going till we pulled in the parking lot of the hockey stadium...the twins got a little bored, they didnt really understand it, but Logan and Michael had so much fun...Logan was yelling and clapping at all the right times...he was really able to follow it well...

Easter was a good day...Nick and i make up some baskets for the boys, and then hit some candy filled plastic eggs around the house...they had a good time finding them all...Then Denny took them for the afternoon to go to his moms house...they came back exhausted but happy...they had woken up at 7:30, so i knew they would be tired...

This last week we didnt to too much..Nick went to his buddies house for a while and hung out there...he did that a few weeks ago too...and when he came home he had flowers in hand...i just love the way he thinks of me when he isnt here...its great! The flowers are pretty...a random assortment of spring colors...

So today im just getting stuff done that was neglected the last few days...i have tons of laundry to do, and its probably time to get the kids sheets and blankets washed...so thats what im doing this weekend...I am going to have breakfast with my mom on Sunday morning...it will get me out of the house for a bit...other then that, i dont plan on going anywhere else...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Blogging Slacker

Whoa its been a while since i updated...Not a long time, but longer then usual i guess...

Nick has been home for almost 2 weeks already...Things are going good...Very laid back...Its nice to have time with him like that...He has about 2 more weeks, then has to go back to Hawaii for 3 weeks, then home for good! I am not looking foreward to being apart from him for 3 more weeks, but its for a good cause, so I am not dwelling on it either!..

We have spent alot of time just being home, and its been so great...We have gone to his parents house for dinner a few times...Thats always a pleasure...I love that his family gets together like that...A Sunday dinner can consist of around 17 people eating around a table...Its something that has taken some getting use to, and i often get a little overwhelmed by it still...I come from a family where i was an only child, and we only got together a few times a year, if even that...So being in a big group of people every Sunday can sometimes feel crowded, but im loving it...Everyone is so welcoming, and fun to be around...I definitely wouldnt change it...

We were on a hunt for a new radio for his car, but gave up...Every time we would go somewhere, we would hit a dead end...So yesterday he bought himself a recliner instead :) He has to go pick it up in a few hours...Its really nice...Brown leather, soft, comfy...You kind of just sink into it...i cant wait to snuggle up in it with a soft blanket, and a good book! Sounds like a grand idea!

Tonight the our parental units are coming for dinner...ive been busting butt on this house trying to get it all straightened up so that it looks nice...it seems to be a never ending battle for me..lol...but thats what happens when there are 6 people in our little home...He is attempting to smoke a pork roast on the grill...oh yeah, he got a grill...he is pretty excited about it...and its been so long since there has been grilled food in this house...its just so yummy! and he is doing a great job at it...It takes some of the pressure off of me to cook...

Saturday we are having a cookout...the house is gonna be soooo full of people...Im looking foreward to that...I havent had a party since before he left for Iraq...It will be nice to have people here...

The boys have really enjoyed having him home...They are excited to come home after school every day to see him here...even more excited to know that he wont be gone for long next time...then he dosnt have to be gone again...

I dont have alot of pictures...i wish i had been taking more, but i will get some taken...

My van died again...after putting a new alternator in it, and a new battery, it still isnt staying charged...It left us stranded yet again...i just dont know what to do about it...its a major stressor for me...but i will figure something out...

well thats it for now...i know i am totally forgetting a bunch, but i have to go finish cleaning, and getting ready for our dinner tonight...love and hugs