Sunday, February 28, 2010

A few things

First I want to say that SG has lost a great sister.  One of the girls on our forum has passed away.  It is a sad day for sure.  Please keep Michelle's family in your thoughts as you go about your day.


So this is me saying goodbye to February.  SEE YA!  This it going to be a hard, and exciting month for me.  By the time its over i will be exhausted.  That I am sure of. We move in 19 days, not counting today.  I am really excited to be moving on.  Scared too.  I have to find a way to cut ties with my house. So I can move on emotionally.

Katie came over yesterday and helped us pack.  She helped alot! we wouldnt have gotten as far as we did without her help.  We tried to take her bowling as a thank you, but instead went to Arby's, then watched some movies.

We picked up a desk for each of the boys new rooms.  We got them for a really good price.  I just hope they arent too big for the rooms.

I have been sorting through so much stuff.  I cant believe how much we arent taking with us.  It will be nice though, to downsize.  I hate clutter!

I know there was more i wanted to say, ive been a bad blogger.  but i just cant think straight tonight

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Rapid Refill Fundraiser/Blanket Drive

The Rapid Refill in Kalamazoo  http://www.rapidrefill351.com/  and Portage is doing a blanket drive for Kalamazoo Beacons Conference until the end of this month!  We are accepting new or gently used blankets, sheets, and pots and pans.  Also anything household related that you can spare.  Please stop in and see us on Westnedge Ave.(same plaza as Target), or West Main(near the corner of Drake and West Main).  When you bring in an item to donate, we will give you 10% off the price of a cartridge!!!!     We have donation boxes set up at both locations.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

just....wow

So I realized today that I have been blogging for almost 3 years now.  I was looking back reading all my old posts, and there is so much emotion, and so much happening.

I was sad reading about the deaths in my family, and i had a racing heart reading about my feelings of Nicks deployment.  I cried over the posts about Logans seizure, and following appointments.

I found this:

i got this in a forewarded email, and wanted to post it here...i didnt write it, but i really liked it...


As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too,

so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love

for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone

you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every

sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Don't be afraid that your life will end,

be afraid that it will never begin.



I read posts about my anxiousness over the boys spending too much time away from me, and about money, and about their first days of school.

It amazes me how much my style of writing has changed.  I use to be a little more creative in this blog, and now I am not.  i will definitely have to work on that!  I use to make it so much more interesting, and these days it just dosnt seem that way..

anyway, looking through my old entries has made me remember so much of what Nick and I have gone through as a long distance couple.  i am so glad that he is home now.  I dont even want to imagine doing that all over again.  I missed him so much, but we got through it.  its just amazing to me that i didnt fall apart at the seams!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

2/13/10

I am trying so hard not to let everything going on right now stress me out.  But I dont think I am succeeding in doing all this stress free.  Every time I get this stressed my stomach starts to have issues.  Its like it all balls up in there or something.  I need to find a release for it soon. 

So Billy went to his new home on Thursday.  I balled like a baby, of course.  I cried before I took him, during, and after.  Who knew I was so attached to that cute little doggy.  Nick misses him too.  Its hard on us to have to do this.  Einstein went to his new home last night when I got home from work.  The couple that took him are really excited about having him.  Apperantly he reminds him of a kitty the wife had a long time ago.  He will be allowed to be an inside/outside kitty.   All we have left now are the two inside kitties, and I need to find homes for them soon.  I cant take the pressure of waiting for it.  If I  have to give them up, I need to do it soon, or I will lose the will to do it.

The people that lived in the apartment we are moving into have already moved out.  That means we can have the apartment sooner if we want, but I dont see that as a possibility for a few reasons.  First, money.  That would be the biggest reason.  Second, those would be some really stress filled days of packing, and Nick and I would like to do this as stress free as possible, its thats possible at all.  So we sign the papers on March 15th, that is the date the leasing agent set for us.  We plan to move some things that week, but mostly the weekend of March 20th.  That isnt very far away at all. 

I am excited and sad at the same time.  This is really hard for me.  I wanted to get out of Bangor, but not in this rushed type of way.  I am excited because this is a new start for us, one without the ex husbands fist bearing down on me.  The only ties we will have left are the boys, well, and child support when its paid.  It will be strange walking out of my home for the very last time.  MY home.  The home my boys have lived in for 11 years.

I have been working on sorting and downsizing.  Sometimes i just dont know what more i can get rid of.  It is a painful process, but cleansing also.  I have advertised things on freecycle, but so far no leads, except for the kitty.  If i cant get rid of stuff, its just going to stay there, unless we can find the time to take it to goodwill, or the salvation army.  We will see if it comes to that.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

02/06/10

I really couldnt think of a title for this, so i just put the date.  I am crafty that way :)

Things are moving foreward with the move.  We were officially approved for the apartment on Monday.  I am really excited about it.  Things have changed with the deposit though.  I am a little stressed about that, but it will all work itself out.  They dont like my credit, and honestly I dont really blame them.  It is bad.  After the wedding i will start fixing it.  Anyway, they want one months rent for the deposit, not too bad really.  The bad part is that they want us to pay 3 months rent up front.  That is pretty extreme.  Especially at this point in our lives.  But we will do it.  We have to do it.  We took the boys by there today, and showed them the apartment complex.  They are getting really excited about it.  They are especially excited that it has 2 pools and is so close to a really big park.

So the apartment becomes available the end of this month.  And they said they would hold it for us till the end of March if we need them to.  That is a bit of a relief.  It will give us extra time to come up with what we need.  i hope we can do it.

Work is going good, I worked this morning, then i have the next 2 days off.  It will be a nice little vacation.  I am learning how to clean and fix printers.  Tuesday I went with one of the guys to deliver product, and do some printer cleanings for some of our business customers.  I really enjoyed doing that.  One of the owners brought in a printer for me to start taking apart.  It will really help me to trouble shoot, and learn.  I am really looking foreward to learning all I can in this company :)

I am working a pretty full week next week.  I am really glad about it.  We need this right now.  The downside is I work on Valentines day.  But its only 5 hours of the day, so not too bad.  I like being there.

We havent found anyone to take the animals yet.  We have been offered a home for the outside kitty, and we might take that one up on the offer.  I think he will be well taken care of there.  We have decided we arent keeping any of them.  We were gonna keep the youngest, but i have family that cant really come over because of the cats, so we decided it was best to let them go.  It will be strange not having any animals, and i am going to miss them.  It will be sort of cleansing for us.  A complete new start.

I am not real excited about the boys going to kalamazoo public schools.  Not that i have anything against the school district.  They just arent use to such a big school.  I am afraid that with Michael being autistic, and Logan having trouble with learning, that it will be too much for them.  So we have an appointment to visit a charter school.  it will be a smaller, more controlled environment.  I really think that is important for them.

I have my final dress fitting in 3 weeks.  No more major alterations.  I am getting really excited about it all.  Its hard to believe i will be a married woman in less that 6 months.  i cant wait for it.  I am very lucky to have found "the one".  he is such a wonderful man.  I could go on about that all day, but my mushiness might gross  you out!