Sunday, March 27, 2011

The end of March already?

Where did this month go?  It is insane that it is already close to an end.  It really has just flown by.  I cant believe we are getting ready to enter the fourth month.  Life seems to just pass by lately.

Things have been crazy, as usual..lol..

I got some extra hours at work, 2 days a week I am working split shifts.  Along with that I have some new responsibilites.  I now make the calls to our business customers that havent been in for a while.  I call to see if they need to order, and that kind of thing.  So far it has been pretty sucessful.  I didnt think I would like it, but I do ok with it.  First couple of calls were really scary.   It has taken me out of my comfort zone, but I am ok with it all.  The new hours wear me out a bit, and the house suffers more then I would like, but its not dirty.  It will even out once I get use to the extra time away from home.

I have been so emotional lately.  Sometimes it seems like life is just too good to be true.  I just always have this dread of the negatives coming into our lives.  I am always thinking that one day it will all fall out from under me again.  I am so lucky in life.  I have 4 amazing boys, and I got a 2nd chance at love.  He makes me so happy, you just have no idea.  I guess I just need to be confident that this happiness will last.  Given my past, sometimes its really hard.  I put so much on him when he came home, kids, bills, and other things.  I am really afraid that one day that will all be too much.  Anyway, those are my personal feelings that I am putting out there...It takes alot for me to do that.

Michael has a doctors appointment on Tuesday.  He has been having headaches tht make him dizzy, and sick to his stomach.  He also says that he gets spots in his eyes when he gets them.  So I made him an appointment.  I hope its something very simple.  I am a little nervous.  I just want him to be ok.  He has always been the healthy one, even with the Aspergers.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

3/17/11

I tried to be creative with the title, but I guess I am just not in the creative mood this evening.  Life is so busy these days, and I always think about updating this, but then its time to do something else, so I just haven't been able to.

Life is really good right now, and I am so grateful for that.  Family life is good, work life is good (except working nights, but i deal with that).  I did find out today though, that my mom and gma are talking about moving out West again.  That sucks, but I cant stop them, and even if I could, would they continue to be happy in Michigan.  Not really.  I would rather them be happy, and if moving is what makes them happy, then I support that decision.  I don't like the fact that they would be so far away.  That part really stinks, but I can partially understand that decision.  I feel bad for my boys, but our schedules never match up, so they don't see her much anyway.  I feel bad for that, but my mom works crazy schedules, i work at night, and nick works crazy schedule, and goes to school.  Life is just too busy to be social I guess.  I do feel bad that we see his family alot more then we see mine, but part of that is lack of planning on both sides.  now that summer is coming I will see them more, hopefully..

The boys are doing great in school right now.  They will be doing an IEP for Steven. That will be the 3rd child of mine with one.  I talked to the teacher about that, and she said it isn't unusual to see it run in families like that.  She told me not to let it make me feel bad, because I am doing everything right, and she said all the kids teachers see that.  That makes me feel a little better at least.  So, Steven will be getting some extra help in certain areas.  It will help him later, so that he isn't behind.

Michael and Logan just got over being sick.  I am pretty sure they passed it on to me, but its hitting me different.  I am exhausted.  So tired its hard to function.  I went to bed at 9 last night.  I hardly ever go to bed that early, but I just couldn't keep my eyes open any longer.  I was ready for the day to be over.  I am tired all the time anyway, but yesterday kicked my butt...Part of it could be that I crawled under/over/and around desks to test 12 printers for a company that is downsizing.  It took me about 2 hours to do that, and it wore me out.  made for a very long day. 

The weather is getting so nice.  I know winter isn't completely out of here yet, but today I had the windows open, it was nice to have fresh air in the house.  I don't like how stuffy it gets inside during the winter months.  Last night after work, we played outside, and enjoyed the weather.  I think it got to about 65 today.

I started a book review blog, but I ended up deleting it.  I am just not creative enough with it, so it wasn't any fun.

I have been into making jewelry alot more lately.  I am getting so much better at it.  I love it.  I just learned how to make earrings, so I have been concentrating on that.  I have a good amount made, but I need to do more.  I want to have a booth this summer at the flea market.  I think that would be so fun.  I have alot of work to do before that though.

I have had almost no social time at all for a while now.  Its getting kind of old. Most of it is because its winter, and I just don't get out as much in Winter.  But I am ready for some time with friends.  I am in serious need of friends.  I don't make them easily, and its even harder to keep them.  Maybe I am just antisocial...who knows

Well, enough for now :)

Monday, March 7, 2011

Life

Things have been so crazy busy these days.  I keep getting way behind on my blogging. 

So, we got our taxes back, and we didnt get as much back as we figured we would.  But on the upside, my student loans are paid off, sooooooo.....I can go back to school!  I am really excited, nervous, and overwhelmed by the idea, but its a good thing.  I really want to make something of myself, mostly for me, but for my family too.  A good paying job would make life so much easier for us.

Nick is close to getting hired in for his job.  I really hope that works out for him.  I think it will be a good thing.  More money for him, and insurance for us.  We both need insurance.  My teeth are bad..really bad..I take care of them, but since the twins were born, they just keep going downhill.

Work has been good for me.  They have given me a little more to do, so my nights go a little faster.   We still arent a real busy store yet, and I fear if we dont get busier soon they may shut that store down.  I would hate to see that happen.

We found out the other day that my sister in law is having a boy!  I had to start shopping right away of course.  I have baby fever so bad at this point. 

We have had some crazy weather this year.  Blizzards, rain, ice storms, winds...lots of wetness.  I really am ready for spring.  I think the kids are ready for a change in weather also.

I started posting my jewelry for sale on facebook..I only have 2 up right now, but I am pretty excited about it.  My designs are simple compared to most, but I am proud of them.  I hope that they will sell.  It would be nice to make money off of something I love to do.

I know this is just a short update, but I am at a loss for words tonight I guess...till next time blog world.